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Wednesday, May 4th, 2005
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5:23 pm
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Don't read this if you don't want to...
I thought I had felt sadness over the past couple of months. And you know me, I'll milk it for all it's worth. But, today... I've encountered a new feeling. This morning I woke up on Justin's couch, at around 8:30, feeling like I needed to get home immediately. My mom had some woman coming over to determine the value of our house, and most of the stuff inside of it. I hadn't cleaned my room, and figured my mom would be quite pissed off if I hadn't gotten that done before the woman came over. So, I biked home as fast as a person who has just woken up can. While biking down Mainway, just past the JoHo churches, I see my mom's car rounding the corner. It pulls into the entrance of the church, and stops waiting for me to get closer. As I did, I noticed my mom in the passenger seat, our cousin Shannon driving, and my sister crying in the back. Had my dad come back and kicked down the door again? That's what I thought. But, then again, I have pretty bad aim. My cousin Josh has been living with my Grandma for the past couple of months, his mom moved out to BC, so he stayed here. And since he's not very good at saving money, my Grandma graciously let him stay with her. Well, while he was getting ready for work this morning, he went downstairs and found my Grandma hunched over on the couch. My Grandma died this morning. I don't know who to feel worse for, Josh, who found my Grandma, and has been only doing a hell of a job taking care of her, or my mom, who is probably going through the worst time of her life right now. I've reached a brand new feeling... I'm completely distraught. There is so much bullshit happening right now... and I'm trying my fucking hardest to not crack. I'm making sure I'm finishing up with the course I'm taking, I'm trying to get this house back in reasonable shape, helping my mom with bills and other crap like that, I'm trying to hold myself together while some of my friends, or what I thought were friends, don't even give me the time of day, and I've even started to quit biting my nails (which I've done my entire life)... It feels like every step I take, the ground underneath my feet crumbles. And now, half my mother's side of the family is down in our living room, and every single time I try and talk to them, their fake smiles only make me fall back down. My mom is down there, laughing and trying to keep a smile on her face too, but I know what is going to happen the second everyone leaves. And I'm so fucking scared that this is all breaking her too. The last time I saw my Grandma, I was showing her how I've got quite the golden streak with my Math Unit tests so far. And I was telling her about all the things I want to do, and want to accomplish, and not just with school and college, but with my life and the people in it. I've said it time and time again, but no more fucking around. What good is wasting time? I put off doing this school shit for the longest time, but for the rest of May, I'm gonna burn through that mother fucker like no other. I put off getting a job, and something as simple as 7-11, I couldn't do... so I'm going to ask Paradiso for more shifts, or start training for something else, and I'm going to make sure my mom doesn't worry about money... I started making my movie, but lost my desire to do it, so I'm gonna make sure that John, Tristan and I make one fucking awesome movie this summer. I'm sure if any of you have read this, it's probably not something that kept your day a nice one. I just needed to get this out.
I need somewhere to go, someone to hang out with... someone gimme a call, ok? I'll owe you one. Or two, if you're lucky.
current mood:  drained
current music: :: sometimes you can't make it on your own :: U2 ::
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| Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
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10:53 pm
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Farewell to i_heart_boobs... This journal is a window to too much of what I don't want to see.
current mood:  crushed
current music: :: gone for good .:. the shins ::
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| Sunday, March 20th, 2005
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12:31 am - Goodnight baby.
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I never thought the death of a little rat would impact me. On Thursday, my little Splinter died. She was pretty much what kept me happy when I came home. I miss her tremendously. Goodnight Ratty, I hope you're in a better place.
current mood: depressed
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| Monday, February 21st, 2005
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12:13 pm
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| Sunday, January 30th, 2005
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5:03 am - aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah chad...
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That's so raven.
So yeah, I'm officially living on my own now. It's weird. The first night I got pretty much NO sleep. And waking up to pure silense is pretty frightening sometimes. I find myself having to think of where I am every I open my eyes for the first time of the day. But, I guess once I'm used to this I'll get a little happier. Right away, I'm noticing ALOT of the choices I make are drastically different than before, which can only be a good thing. And I spend alot more time playing with Ratty, so that's good too. Although, I'd imagine my fish aren't fairing too well... my Mom has prolly completely forgot about them. I wonder what they'll do with my room? And I wonder if my dad regrets being a fucking asshole? Whatever. As soon as I get a computer, I think I may start writing a movie. More and more ideas flood my brain everyday, when I'm sitting alone at my place. Same with ideas for paintings. Which I shall start tomorrow. Anyways, I'm pretty wiped out right now... but, let's end on a good note... remember that time at New Year's 2002 when I set Jenny Keres' hair on fire? Ah man.
current mood:  very high
current music: CASTLEVANIA MUSIC
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| Wednesday, January 19th, 2005
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1:16 am - Slowly, but surely...
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So, this weekend I move into my own place... *shudder* Just typing that seems crazy. Well, not crazy... but different... and scary. But, it's finally time to get things done... and move out of this void, where I just keep doing nothing with myself. It'll be exciting to have so much independance and be away from everything, but at the same time I'm gonna be freaking out... just a bit. There's alot of people who have left home... Dawn, Jen, Tristan, Mike Liu... yada yada yada... and I've never really thought of it... I'm going to have to be supporting myself completely. I know that comes to be just obvious to some people, but I guess, because I'm so damn dependant it seems really crazy. But, I know for damn sure that it'll be an improvement for me as a person. Over the last year, there has been alot of things that have pretty much smacked me in the face, and told me, "Chris, you have some god damn growing up to do!" So here's my chance. And in the end, I know that it will have taught me disipline, and make me a more bearable person.
Here we go...
current mood:  blank
current music: pantomime :: incubus
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| Sunday, December 26th, 2004
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10:09 pm
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| Friday, December 24th, 2004
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10:00 am
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What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
-- Hm... Well... I sung about crabs in a bucket, shaking a polaroid picture, and becoming retarded... or the correct term, "handicapt".
-- I left Ontario to venture the greater horizons of Canada. I ended up in Montreal... pfft.
-- And I repeated several variations of shitting on someone or their doorstep OR throwing the shit too many times for me to remember. That shall stop.
-- Crowdsurfing, broke some guy's nose, and touched some random girl's boob all in the same night... wait... I've done that last one before... uh...
-- Learned how to play guitar.
Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
-- Fuck, I can't even remember what my resolution was. But, I always try to make one to see how they'll last.
Did anyone close to you give birth?
-- Well, considering it was about two years ago... I'm just gonna say yes anyways. But, my friend Carly in Hamilton did. Let's just pretend it was this year, just so I can fill this spot.
Did anyone close to you die?
-- Yes, my parent's good friend Joe from Michigan. Him and his wife share our condo in Florida with us. And Bowser almost did.
What countries did you visit?
-- Nothing.
What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
-- School. Some sort of relationship with my parents... cause they kinda = assholes.
What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
-- Well, let's start with Tristan's New Year's party. That was a nice way to kick off the brand new year of 2004. My birthday was another... going to see Incubus and Billy Corgan. Getting back together with Jody... going to Montreal... blah blah blah...
What was your biggest achievement of the year?
-- I guess using my money a little better...
What was your biggest failure?
-- Let's not get into that.
Did you suffer illness or injury?
-- Multiple headaches/migraines, getting glass in my eye at work, slicing my finger at work...
What was the best thing you bought?
-- Hm... Splinter, Jody's Christmas present, Nintendo DS...
Whose behavior merited celebration?
-- Splinter, and that's pretty much it. Pretty sad that a rat who chews through everything and shits and pisses everywhere has better behaviour than most people. *shakes head*
Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
-- Let's not mention all of them, because I would REALLY rather not waste time arguing with people... Jenn Goodman, for treating Jody like a piece of shit... Amy Gould, for being an even bigger douchebag than I thought she could be... Myself, for not getting things done... My Dad, who seems to prove that he can become a bigger and bigger fuckface as the days pass...
Where did most of your money go?
-- Hm... food, video games, my stupid fucking backyard, Montreal, Jody...
What did you get really, really, really excited about?
-- I don't know.
What song will always remind you of 2004?
-- "Let's Get Retarded" by B.E.P.
-- "Here In My Room" by Incubus
-- "California" by Phantom Planet
-- "Wonderwall" by Ryan Adams
Compared to this time last year, are you:
happier or sadder? I really don't know.
thinner or fatter? Pretty much the same.
richer or poorer? Richer, definitely.
What do you wish you'd done more of?
-- Reading, learning,
What do you wish you'd done less of?
-- Having stupid arguments with people I shouldn't be arguing with.
How will you be spending Christmas?
-- Don't know yet.
Did you fall in love in 2004?
-- I don't even need to answer that.
How many one-night stands?
-- Heh heh heh...
Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
-- I'm a firm believer in hatred, but I pretty much hate the same people I did last year. I hate them enough that if they try and show up at a certain New Year's party, I can pretty much guarantee they'll regret it... :)
What was the best book you read?
-- Ugh...
What did you want and get?
-- Nintendo DS and a rat.
What did you want and not get?
Less of the answer to the question seven up from here.
What was your favorite film of this year?
-- Well, I can start by saying it's DEFINITELY NOT Matrix Revolutions or The Ladykillers. They were by far the worst movies I've seen in a while.
-- But, my favorites were... Anchorman, Collateral, Napolean Dynamite and Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban...
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
-- Got kidnapped from work, wrapped up in cellophane, taken to the mall to have my picture taken with Santa, taken to a bar to have some shots (still in the cellophane), then went to Philthy's where a surprise party waited, ate, got drunk, then went to Justin's and got retarded.
What things would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
-- Three up from here.
What kept you sane?
-- Definitely the O.C. earlier in the year... that and Kasia, Marcie, and Heather.
Who did you miss?
-- Jody.
Who was the best new person you met?
Kasia, Marcie, Heather "the albino" Veska.
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
-- People suck sometimes.
current mood:  bitchy
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| Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004
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2:36 am - WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! This is alot earlier than I thought they would announce it... EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
"Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince" by J.K. Rowling, the sixth in the best-selling series, has been scheduled for release on July 16, 2005 in the United States, Britain, Canada and Australia, it was announced today by Scholastic and Bloomsbury, her publishers. On her website, JKRowling.com, J.K. Rowling announced yesterday that she had delivered the manuscript to her publishers. You can pre-order the book at Amazon.com.
In making the joint announcement, Barbara Marcus, President of Scholastic Children's Books in the United States, and Nigel Newton, Chief Executive of Bloomsbury Publishing in Britain, said, "We are delighted to announce the publication date. J.K. Rowling has written a brilliant story that will dazzle her fans in a marvelous book that takes the series to yet greater heights. 'Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince' delivers all the excitement and wonder of her best-selling previous Harry Potter novels."
In the fifth and most recent book, "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix," the last chapter, titled "The Second War Begins," started:
'In a brief statement Friday night, Minister of Magic Cornelius Fudge confirmed that He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named has returned to this country and is active once more.
"It is with great regret that I must confirm that the wizard styling himself Lord - well, you know who I mean - is alive among us again," said Fudge.'
"Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince" takes up the story of Harry Potter's sixth year at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry at this point in the midst of the storm of this battle of good and evil.
The author has already said that the Half-Blood Prince is neither Harry nor Voldemort. And most importantly, the opening chapter of "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince" has been brewing in J.K. Rowling's mind for 13 years.
"Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix," J.K. Rowling's fifth Harry Potter book, was released on June 21, 2003, and was the fastest-selling book in history on the first weekend of its publication. All five Harry Potter books, "Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone," "Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets," "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban," "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire," as well as "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix," have been number one bestsellers in the United States, Britain, and around the world.
Scholastic will publish "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince" in hardcover under the Arthur A. Levine imprint with interior and cover art by Mary Grand Pre, who has illustrated the previous five books. The price will be $29.99.
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, based on the fourth book, is due out in theaters on November 18, 2005, and Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, based on the fifth book, is eyeing a June, 2007 release date.
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HAW! Thus begins the countdown!
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| Monday, December 13th, 2004
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10:40 am - Merry Chrismukkah!
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Aaaaaaaaaaaah... 'tis the season... There's nothing I enjoy more than receiving!
Anyways... with Christmas coming up I just keep thinking about all the partying that will be going on... especially New Years. Which will be taking place at Jody's since year... since the Gough's can't. But, do you remember last year? I know I sure do... I have some fancy little memories stacked up this ol' cranium. For example, setting Jenny Keres' hair on fire. Which leads me to ask a very important question... PLEASE!? Please, will someone invite her to Jody's party? If I could do it again... I would in an instant. Also, how 'bout all the people at the Gough residence? If it was like the game of guessing how many jelly beans were in the jar, what would you say? Me... I'd say 200, maybe more. And my favorite... can be summed up in one image...
Aw, fuck!
Yeah, so if Jody's having a party... Dawn Anthony you better get your ass into Burlington, or I will hunt you down and show you the meaning of Hot Carl. I kid you not.
So... yeah... I'm gonna go eat a muffin.
current mood:  chipper
current music: pantomimes :: incubus
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| Sunday, December 12th, 2004
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3:32 pm
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| Friday, December 10th, 2004
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7:30 am - oh my fuck...
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| Friday, December 3rd, 2004
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10:22 am - fuck me sideways...
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So, I've been livin' the night life for the past week and a half. Fuckin' Michaels and their fuckin' ass sucking! Now I'm exhausted, but it's finally over. I can almost guarantee I'll be sick in a week or two... cause my body will finally shift back over to regular sleeping time, but it'll still be freakin out cause of the wonky sleeping I've had lately. So, right now I'm sitting at my POS computer enjoying a glass of Fruitopia, and ridiculously salty popcorn (which is almost guaranteed to give me the runs). I probably won't fall asleep until... like... 2 or 3 in the afternoon, and then I'll waste the rest of the freakin' day sleeping. Which is always a huge disappointment. Anyways...
Montreal was alot of fun. Alot of partying, drug consumption, shopping, drug consumption, hot sex... that kind of stuff. I took tons of pictures, but I haven't funked around with them all yet... some I've put on my Photog site (xarlos.deviantart.com), but not all are there. There's an awesome one of Tristan blowing smoke rings that I shall post... ok, done.
Anyways, my eyes are getting hella heavy... I'm gonna try to sleep now.
current mood:  sleepy
current music: xarlos.deviantart.com
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| Tuesday, November 30th, 2004
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9:19 pm
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If you missed it...
This is the website where all my photography is hiding out...
xarlos.deviantart.com
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| Sunday, November 28th, 2004
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1:57 pm
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| Saturday, November 27th, 2004
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1:03 am
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Who wants boobie?
Ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch.
I want boobie.
Ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch.
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What do you think would sound better? Boobie with a 'y'... or boobie with an 'i-e'?
current mood: extremely high
current music: MAAAAAAAAAAAAAARIO...
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| Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004
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6:09 am
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Well, I think today was a result of stress and my wonky emotions, as well as smoking up last night. To fill you in, last night/this morning I kept waking up from a very painful headache. I woke up this morning to a knock at my door. It was Dan Oke. He was bound and determined to have a wrestling match at the park. No, I hadn't done this for years, so turning it down ended up not being an option. However, a bad option. We didn't hold back. I jumped off the top of the slide with two seperate flips. And we just basically threw each other around a WHOLE lot. In the end, I had to stop, because my eyes were going blurry from the headache being so bad. So, I went home, Dan went home, and then I started realizing, this sum bitch was a migraine. How did I figure this out? Well, the barfing. Everything in my stomach was completely emptied... I felt horrible. So horrible, that I fell asleep on my bathroom floor for a while.
Anyways... Montreal is in 2 days... ish. I'm damn excited. I bought my Nintendo DS for the car ride and everything. YEE HAW! I'll definitely have pictures up when we get back. Fo sho!
Speaking of pictures, I'm getting more and more passionate about Photography, it's nuts! Maybe Ryerson for Photography? Or Sheridan for Media Arts? Hm...
Well, here's the location of some of my recent photography...
xarlos.deviantart.com
current music: pantomimes :: incubus
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| Saturday, November 20th, 2004
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12:36 am
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| Sunday, November 14th, 2004
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10:32 am
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Thank you to everybody who came last night and made my 19th birthday awesomely fantastic. I'm glad I have friends who are so willing to wrap me up in cellophane and then take me places in public. I love you guys. Thanks for everything! And, thank you, my darling Jody, for organizing it all!
Ok, well, I'm going to crawl back into bed now.
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| Saturday, November 13th, 2004
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12:14 am - YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HAW!
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It's my fuckin' birthday! I just turned 19 about fourteen minutes ago. Let's get this partying started...
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
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